Dying Is My Latest Fashion

deathhieroglyphics:

i’m tired of trying to see people hate their lives even though they really don’t, the way they turn out to be in the “oh-so-spartanic-emo-moment”, the way they flash back to eyeliners when they’re heartbroken, the way they go run along showing everyone their dark side of life. It’s really pathetic. Sometimes i really wonder why a lot of people turn out to be emo. It’s cliche. “Everyone is doing it. “

It’s weird for me to look around just now, i mean… Even people who are old enough to know themselves do NOT know their identity. Let’s say even people in their mid 20’s don’t know what they are doing.

About blogs, IT CAN be very insulting. Sometimes, you tend to write about things in your blog that refers to another person’s blog, and the wrong thing is.. IT’S NOT ABOUT YOU. I can merely tell this is insanity… it’s the supreme “oh-my-god-ang-gulo-na” paranoia.

Well, i have to admit though, but i’ve put my life to more than what we call a mess. but i’m all good now. i’ve found myself and i’ve seen the person i’ve been looking for… ME.. and because of that, i’ve found another half of me that makes me whole again. to some people, they think it’s easy for me to know ME, but not really. from killing myself, to breaking mirrors, from suicidal emo moments to band life, it’s more than enough to tell… our time is different. far enough different.

let us not be hypocrites here. i have to be honest, i’m not YFC anymore. i don’t want to go “oh-i-so-love-God-but-i-hate-my-freakin-life”. It’s a big LIE. honey, i LIED to myself. i have to admit! it’s probably the reason why i can’t go back anymore. i can’t keep on LYING to myself. the hardest part of me is my service to the one up there. i had to let go of it for now, and you’d probably notice my “non-religious” side if you get to talk to me. i’m merely uninspired. i guess..

anyway, about this blog. life’s a drug. all the while you thought youre hurting yourself and literally see things going away, but deep inside, you’re not okay.

that’s it! just look at yourself right now… is that really you?